I’m so emotional today. Things are changing more with Mama and I’m not ready to even write about it all quite yet. And somehow I’m feeling held up and totally depleted at the same time–which seems to make no sense. And yet is true.
It reminds me of when I was a little child, and I got hurt when Mom was gone and someone else was watching me. And I would be okay, until Mommy got home– and then I’d cry.
Things with Mom are getting harder. But we’re getting more help and support, too.
I’m feeling weak, but I know God is strong. I looked up this memory from about a year and a half ago, and found comfort…
Yesterday, I was visiting Mom and Dad. Mom saw me sitting on the love seat, and got up off her rocking chair saying, “I want to sit by you.”
I quickly moved things off the seat next to me, as Mama tottered over. Then she sat close to me. She held my hand and leaned her head against my arm and softly patted my arm. And it was so sweet, I didn’t want to move. Ever.
Mama used to want to sit by me often. But now she usually just stays in her own chair. So this time of gentle affection is ever more precious and I soak it in and savor it.
These moments of mama love are gifts from God and renew me. I read this morning, in Jeremiah 31:25 (NKJV), “For I have satiated the weary soul, and I have replenished every sorrowful soul.”
In the midst of the weary sorrow stuff of Alzheimer’s and life, I am grateful for the moments of soul replenishment God sends. He restores my soul. He is faithful and loving and good.
And He will always be my side. He will always hold my hand. I can always lean my head on His strong shoulder. And He will always shelter me with His love. Always.
Cheryl, I’m so sorry. It’s so scary when changes happen :”( I hate seeing the changes in grandma. It’s so hard. I’m praying for you and your family. Jes
Oh and I know what you mean by savoring the moment. My grandma kisses me constantly right on the smackers and I enjoy every single one 🙂
Thanks fruitcake5! Keep enjoying those kisses!
I am praying for you. Thank you for posting today. My mom has had some major changes happen the last two weeks. I love the last two paragraphs of your post. Means so much. I have been feeling very overwhelmed today.
Sorry you’re dealing with the hard stuff, too, Amy. It’s easy to feel overwhelmed. Thanks for your prayers–I’m sharing some for you right now. May God bless and strengthen you! ~Cheryl
Cheryl: I am so sorry that you are on this difficult journey. But you are not alone. There are those of us who are following behind taking care of our own mothers, fathers, loved ones. Thank you for calling back to us, for letting us know that the Lord is faithful still. Thank you for your loving honesty, for baring your heart, speaking into words what we cannot express. I’ll be praying for you and yours. Psalm 121 has been an encouragement of late. ♫Jesus Loves Me♫ Much love found in Christ, Jill
What a beautiful comment, Jill. You bring tears to my eyes. Thank you for the encouragement and prayers–it means so much. ~Cheryl
Amen, dear One. I share with you from NH and send God’s supportive love to you and your Mama. God bless you both. ❤️❤️❤️
Thank you, Kim!
Thank you for this today…I am in Washington today on behalf of The Alzheimer’s Association to lobby for three important measures to impact positively this fight. God bless you and God bless all who are walking this walk.
Thank you, Cheryl, for serving and fighting for our loved ones!