I keep hearing the heartbreaking news of people losing loved ones. Since both my parents passed on in the last five years, I know how especially hard that first year can be. So, when people I know lose someone close to them, I put them on my prayer list and remember them often in my prayers for at least a year.
And wow! My prayer list is long this year! Partly because of COVID. Partly because I’m in that age group where friends are losing their parents. And partly because life is hard and our world is tainted by cancer and sickness and crime and depression and tragic accidents.
I read obituaries and am struck sometimes by how briefly a whole life can be summed up. It’s intriguing to see what adjectives and facts are chosen to describe a person. It makes me wonder what words will come to mind when I pass on.
It makes me want my life to count.
I spend so much time at home now because of my health issues. I hope my loved ones will have more to say about me than, “She really loved chocolate and reading and Diet Mountain Dew.”
I want to live with a heart and life fully surrendered to God. Totally obedient to His call on my life.
Paul did much of his ministry from jail. Which makes me think that even those of us who are somewhat housebound, can still minister to others. And so I pray…
Abba Father, please help me to live each day in close fellowship with You. Lead me to faithfully lift up my loved ones, and all those You put on my heart, in earnest prayer. Remind me not to discount this time as being in any way unproductive, and to know that prayer is an essential ministry that You call us to.
And Abba, please help me to be sensitive and aware of Your gentle promptings. Give me grace and strength to follow through and obey You. May I always send the text or gift you nudge me to send. Give me courage to say the words, make the invitation. or take the next step as You lead. Help me to postpone the callings of my to-do list or pleasures whenever I hear Your whispers directing me another way.
Help me, Abba, to live a life that honors You no matter what my circumstances. And when the time comes, I hope people will be able to honestly sum up my life with words like, “She loved God with all her heart and she loved others well.”
I pray that I will fulfill Your purposes for my life, no matter how long or short that life may be.
“Teach us to number our days that we may apply our hearts to wisdom.” Psalm 90:12 (NKJV)