Mama has a message for you. Well, most of you anyway…
I sit down near Mom and say, “Hi Mama. I’m Cheryl.” She doesn’t respond so I add, “My name is Cheryl.”
“My name is Cheryl,” Mom answers. She looks confused and then adds, “Cheryl? No it’s not.”
“I’m Cheryl and you’re Nina.”
“I’m Nina Fay!” Mom shouts, with decisiveness and conviction.
We listen to some music together and then I get up to do some things for Dad. Before I leave I bend close to Mama and say, “I love you.”
Mom looks a little grouchy and says, “Well, I love everybody.”
“You love everybody?”
And I think about Mama when her mind was strong, and know that it was true. She did love just about everybody. She knew everyone in our neighborhood, and was always one to go introduce herself to new neighbors and welcome them.
She knew the manager of the corner market, and traded him banana bread for ripe bananas. She called family all the time, even though most of them were long distance at a time when long distance was expensive. And she kept in touch with old friends even though they lived on the other side of the country.
I miss Mama’s love. I miss her knowing who I am and knowing my name. I miss her smile of recognition. I miss her laughter, so often buried under agitation and shouting these days.
But I cling to the truth, that because she gave her heart to Jesus, all will be restored one day. I will see her smile again. I will hear her laughter again. I will see her look at me with recognition and clarity once more! And I will know Mama’s love for eternity!
And meanwhile, I thank you, my friends and readers, for standing in the gap for me. Thank you for your encouragement, love, and prayers! You have warmed my heart often with your messages and I’m more grateful for you than I can say!!
And remember, Mama loves you all. Or, just about anyway. 😉